On a new year, a new day, I created this for them..

Saying out what i felt for the past yrs or maybe mths.. And they also claim tt its entirely my fault.. For not communicating with them, going out with my friends, treating friends more imptantly than them.

And its like they talk to my sis more and like her more, so what can i do? They prefer calling her name so jus call her in future.. And I've been staying at home more already. I'VE GOT NO MORE FRIENDS!! Jus what do they want!! Seriously, i want to care for them more.. But how?!!
When i wan to do that, they just see the good side of my sis.. Do so much for what?!

Jus treat it tt they have jus 4 children!! And i'm just the stranger renting their place to stay..

I've been trying to think positively already, trying to calm myself down, shutting myself in one room and thinking of ending everything, and not saying the worst thing tt i could have said when i'm angry.

My limit!! My limit!!
So what if i cry myself to slp or starve myself in my room..
SO WHAT!!

Friends, seriously, u can just forget abt me, my nonsense and everything.. Treat me how i treat all of u.. As in the worse part.. Don't treat me any better.. please!! Jus be mindful of me and think of the bad part,, and dislike me as soon as possible.

Tt would be what i'll be grateful abt to u.. And u'll be grateful abt me.